TL;DR
I have been throwing crushing positions against higher rated players about 50-75% of the time then tilting in the following game(s).
Well its been about 2-3 weeks since my last OTB tournaments, and I did not do great to say the least. I ended up losing 50 fide ELO points over my last two events, and I feel like the reason is the fact I tilted horribly after throwing an early game against a ( much ) higher rated player in the next game against a lower rated player in each tournament ( keep in mind these were rapid events and the games were pretty long so I had little recovery time before the next game ) . during the games against higher rated players, I ended up getting a crushing position and with sufficient time to convert, but not so much time that I could relax. I feared that if I spent too much time in the current position I wouldn't have enough time to convert the advantage, I still would, even 10 seconds would be enough to convert the resulting position, I had 3 minutes, nothing but fear/nervousness. As a result I missed A embarrassingly simple move In each game, and the eval suddenly inverted colors. The 2 games were against an +253 points my rating, an 1830, and +868(!) my rating, GM Swayams Mishra ( @ mr_bh6 on lichess ). There are also countless examples in classical games where I have a good position but for some reason I play too fast and blunder something, which I wont go into, this post is long enough as is.
I have been throwing crushing positions against higher rated players about 50-75% of the time then tilting in the following game(s).
Well its been about 2-3 weeks since my last OTB tournaments, and I did not do great to say the least. I ended up losing 50 fide ELO points over my last two events, and I feel like the reason is the fact I tilted horribly after throwing an early game against a ( much ) higher rated player in the next game against a lower rated player in each tournament ( keep in mind these were rapid events and the games were pretty long so I had little recovery time before the next game ) . during the games against higher rated players, I ended up getting a crushing position and with sufficient time to convert, but not so much time that I could relax. I feared that if I spent too much time in the current position I wouldn't have enough time to convert the advantage, I still would, even 10 seconds would be enough to convert the resulting position, I had 3 minutes, nothing but fear/nervousness. As a result I missed A embarrassingly simple move In each game, and the eval suddenly inverted colors. The 2 games were against an +253 points my rating, an 1830, and +868(!) my rating, GM Swayams Mishra ( @ mr_bh6 on lichess ). There are also countless examples in classical games where I have a good position but for some reason I play too fast and blunder something, which I wont go into, this post is long enough as is.